Recovery A-Z

My friend Kathleen MacDonald shared this on Facebook earlier today, and she graciously gave me permission to share it on my blog. I hope you enjoy.

‎"So how did you turn things around?" is one of the most common questions I get about my recovery-process. I wish there was an easy/short answer...but there isn't. (don't worry --this won't be one of my lonnnnnnnnnnnngggggg-winded status to detail the answer) ~ There were several key components to my final recovery process that led to me becoming are a few:

a. I got serious about nutrition and I stopped making me the "exception" to needing to eat
b. I got serious about gaining body fat
c. I learned to be comfortable feeling uncomfortable and I didn't fall back into the disease every time my body image felt like hell or my guts distended/I felt pregnant
d. I got serious about the fact that every purge could be my last
e. I got serious about the fact that it wasn't safe to exercise (I ended up taking nearly 2 years off from exercise --which was really hard to do) when I was under-nourished and under-hydrated
f. I realized that I needed to 'over-nourish' my body in an effort to replenish and repair all the damage done (even if my bloodwork was 'normal')
g. I kept Kitty Westin and Ron & Sally Crist George in my heart/prayers ever day 
h. I put God in the center of my recovery-process (along with nutrition)
i. I did not listen to the doctors who told me that I had to give up gluten and dairy b/c I had "intolerances" -- of COURSE I had intolerances to those foods...I had intolerance to most foods b/c my body was so screwed up from all the years of 'dieting'
j. "suicide is not an option" became my mantra -- no matter what, suicide is never the answer
k. I disconnected myself from unhealthy relationships
l. Recovering became my number one focus --above school, fun, relationships, etc... First Job = recovering
m. I dared to dream that RECOVERED existed and I sought after it with all my heart (it exists, trust me!)
n. I put the emotional stuff on hold until my brain was better healed - (and guess what --after my brain was healed and I was thinking clearly for the first time in 16 years, I realized that the emotional stuff that had caused me so much pain and wasn't as bad as my ED brain had convinced me...and I was able to heal from it vs. sink into deep despair)
o. I got rid of life-expectations that I had for myself (ie: I must have my Ph.D. by the time I'm 30)...and I just focused on recovering...and I trusted that Ph.D programs would still be available when I was recovered ;-)
p. I stopped trying to help others and I learned to 100% focus on me
q. Gretz, the Super Setter --enough said.
r. I learned to forgive myself
s. I ate thru the pain
t. I stopped purging
u. I stopped believing that I was ugly
v. I stopped believing that my body is less-than-beautiful when I am healthy
w. I stopped thinking that cellulite is ugly
x. I got rid of my scale
y. I healed my body image issues thru nutrition, 'sitting with it', and thru learning to see myself and everyone else thru the eyes of God --which means that I see every single human being as beautiful.
z. I never gave up on the enigmatic power of Hope.

What letter resonates most with you?


Abby said...

I couldn't pick just one. When I went inpatient so many years ago, I was introduced to Kathleen. Her story was eerily like my story. It made me feel strange comfort and convinced me I wasn't crazy, that even though I didn't fit a "type" of ED, that didn't mean it didn't exist. She was incredible and gave me hope.

With that said, I need that hope now and I needed to read this post. Over and over and over. Thank you both for giving me a little bit of strength (as I'm reading this, avoiding the gym.)

KrisB said...

Wow, what a list! And it looks like every single item is SO important. Thanks for sharing some of the key elements in facilitating your recovery.

Sensory Overload said...

THIS, kind of blew my regular mental thoughts out of the water. THANK YOU. I know I have a very LONG way to go in regards to this post, but it is inspiration. An in inspiration, I tend to find so much that I'd rather aim for than run from.

Cheers to Kathleen McDonald and to you Carrie for posting this.

Light and peace to all.

Purple Dreamer said...

What a hope-filled list this is... maybe, if I look at things one item at a time, there is hope for me, too, cause I still get really stuck on quite a few of these points. Very inspiring, I'm so glad you posted it here!

Angela Elain Gambrel said...

One of the best things I did for my recovery was to get rid of my scale. One day I was looking at it and I became really angry, thinking about how that scaled had ruled my life and made me so miserable for so long. So I slammed it against the garbage can and tossed it in. The End.

Brittnie said...

This is great. I couldn't pick just one letter but the few that resonate the most with me are h, and y.

hm said...

c, f, s

Agrace12 said...

This is awesome. I am kind of on the verge of a relpase. Using behaviors I have not used in so long. This is good motivation. Thank you

Cara said...

Okay I started to twice type up something for you that was quite detailed... and I hit refresh twice... UGH!!! So let's just say most of these letters really hit home for me, except the stuff about God/religion.

Cara said...

And the suicide not being an option, weight gain and nutrition being 100% necessary, needing extra, and NOT purging were ones that EXTREMELY hit home.

Carrie Arnold said...

Cara, I'm with you about the religion stuff not necessarily hitting home, but I loved the other stuff, and I know that lots of other people find comfort in religion, so who am I to judge? :)

Abby said...

I have to agree. I am not religious at all, but I take away from it what I need. And we all know that anything helps ;)

Anonymous said...

Great thoughts! I'm really curious about 'i'. I, too, seem to be gluten sensitive. I've heard that undereating can lead to sensitivities and intolerances, particularly with gluten, but haven't heard much beyond that. Any idea what the underlying causes are, more specifically? Is tolerance built up simply by reintroducing gluten into the diet, or...?

Re: religion and god references, I think that the secular-friendly and more inclusive version of that might be something like: seeking and engaging in activities and communities that lead to feelings of awe, purpose, support and wisdom. Of course, I realize that the writer wrote that from HER experience, but I think that everyone can have the same positive results, in recovery, and beyond, without the need for religion.

Victoria said...

J and X were my main motivations. I am still working on O.

Anonymous said...

I resonated with all from a-z in my attemnpts to seek recovery from ED, and having had the honour to meet Kathleen several times, she is truly lovely and such an inspiration to me.

S.M. said...

How motivating! I do not start my treatment until the fall, but in the meantime, it helps to know that I am not alone; that others are not only going through the same thing, but they have similar thoughts.

Letter 'V' really hit close to home. I know that I am underweight, but I do not think I am unhealthy. And yes, I recognise my disordered thinking, yet I still cannot get it through my head.

Beauty = health, and health = gaining at least 15-20 pounds. Simple right? Yet so difficult...

Thank you for sharing :)

Alice Menner said...

I really like your attitude towards overcoming this even though I'm suffering from binge eating disorder, it's similar mentally though

Lady Em said...

Wow, your posting here inspired me! It was just the determined, tough talking that I needed to hear.

So many of the letters resonate with me, but what affected me the most was your use of the phrase, "I got serious about...."

I've been talking the talk about wanting to fight my anorexic behaviour but I've been burying my head in the sand and not walking the walk.

It's my time to get serious about recovering from anorexia.

kazehana said...

I have been thinking about this list all month. It is inspiring and motivating...the only thing I would say bothered me though is letter 'i' where she ignored her food intolerances.

I would say that for some people, ignoring those intolerances can lead to things like auto-immune disorders as the intestine becomes increasingly more inflamed and damaged. I developed allergies to wheat and dairy, and fighting the inflammation/allergic reactions from those things is not something that is conducive to recovery because it makes me not want to eat anything when I'm doubled up in pain. Choosing to ignore something like that could lead to a long term life/health crisis long after recovery has become a normal way of living.

Everything else though...golden.

Becky said...

Thanks for sharing this Carrie, somehow I missed this post of Kathleen's. I was one of those people who asked her about the turning point as parents always want to know what helped people recover.

I would say "N" was my favorite because no matter what eating disorder it is the brain needs renourishing and it's great that she could put that stuff on the back burner while her brain healed.
Becky Henry
Hope Network LLC

Anonymous said...

Hah! They are too good. They looks so very beautiful, I like them. they make me want to read your

article even more! thanks!cheapest runescape gold, cheapest runescape gold for sale.

Emmy Gilmour said...

I appreciate the way you are trying your way to improve yourself. If you need further help contact "The Recover Clinic". You can view us online.

saeed ahmed thanvi said...

World's Most Popular Cars, Hot Speed Cars, Hot Cars with Hot Girls, Cars Latest Pictures with all info, Latest updates Cars Models and Company Cars, Strange Vehicles, Concept Cars, Top 10 Expensive Cars in the World.
Visit this Link for More Strange Vehicles and Cars with Latest info and Pictures

Brad maddox said...

Trading is the Best Business Ever in the World.. All News updates about Forex Business, Latest Currency news updates, latest forex trading business updates, trading updates, forex trading latest news, forex brokers directory, forex brokers list, Dollars news affairs, Stock Markets, stock market news, stock market analysis, technology news, international forex markets, international forex business news and all updates about Forex Trading

Mahi Seo said...
This comment has been removed by the author.
sameer waseem said...

Top Ten Classified Website List, Pakistani Classified Sites, USA Classifieds, Indian Classifieds, Entertainment Articles, Entertainment News, Entertainment Pictures, Bollywood, Hollywood and Lollywood Pictures and Videos, Entertainment Latest updates, Hot Entertainment News and Pictures Funny Entertainment Pictures, lol Pictures, Funny Pictures and every thing you want...

Ramesh chauhan said...

The most common thing we do when we going to download something and make the Firewall off but after downloading forgot to make it on again.

Cholesterol Medication - If you are looking for an online doctor or Cholestrerol levels Medication a doctor Body weight Decrease Medication do evaluate whether they offer support of an online recommended or not as without it you would not be aware of your problem or the type of medicine being offered. In the same way while buying The red product online do create sure the stability of the online pharmacy.

Brad maddox said...

The Best Lol n Troll Network with the Name of Lols Gag... Troll Images, Prank Peoples, Funny Peoples, funny planet, funny facts, funny cartoons, funny movies pics, iphone funny, funny jokes, Prank Images, Fail Pictures, Epic Pictures, Lols and Gags, Lol Pictures, Funny Pictures, Lol is the Laugh out of Laugh where you can Fun Unlimited and Laughing Unlimited.

fariya khan said...

Lol is the Laugh out of Laugh where you can Fun Unlimited and Laughing Unlimited. The Best Lol n Troll Network with the Name of Lols Gag... Troll Images, Prank Peoples, Funny Peoples, funny planet, funny facts, funny cartoons, funny movies pics, iphone funny, funny jokes, Prank Images, Fail Pictures, Epic Pictures, Lols and Gags, Lol Pictures, Funny Pictures.

moosa asim said...

Make Money Online is very easy now, In Internet system we have now best earning system without any work, Just Invest some Money into your Business and Make Perfect Life time Earnings with this Business.
Join Now for Make Perfect Business and Earn Money online from home.

ryan james said...

Make Money Online is very easy now, In Internet system we have now best earning system without any work, Just Invest some Money into your Business and Make Perfect Life time Earnings with this Business.
Join Now for Make Perfect Business and Earn Money online from home.

abdullah asim said...

Latest cars and vehicles, Latest Mazda Models, Racing Cars, International Sport Cars, Concept Cars, PS-Pod, Strange Vehicles, Nissan, Royce Corniche, Ford Concept Cars, Strange Vehicles, Mercedes and More Sport Cars and Vehicles with Pictures and Info

Uhu work said...

Make Money Online Without any work, You can Invest as low as 1$ Dollar to 100$ Dollars and Get Daily profit of 2.50% for 90 Days.
Minimum Withdraw 1 and Instant Payout with PayPal, EgoPay and Perfect Money
Join Now

hasnain raza said...

Best Clicking Job in Pakistan, Join the best Clicking and Add Clicking job, Visit for more details

Lane said...

So motivating and helpful

jaring safety said...

Nice article, thanks for the information. It's very complete information. I will bookmark for next reference
jaring futsal | jaring golf | jaring pengaman proyek |
jaring pengaman bangunan | jaring pengaman gedung

Mac Topan said...

Thanks for Sharing That... Sucses for You













Erectile dysfunction (ED) is the inability to get or keep an erection firm enough to have sexual intercourse. It is also sometimes also referred to as impotence. Occasional ED is not uncommon. Many men experience it during times of stress. However, frequent ED can be a sign of health problems that need treatment.and you can get the treatment by contacting Dr Leonard at

Anonymous said...

He helped me with a fast cure to fibroid,and the size of it was 9.8x10.7cm, Then I started taking the medication for only one month, and now am completely cured from it. I was able to make it without any surgery, now I can live like every normal human and I can eat any food of my choice If you need such help, contact him via mail on if you need his help

chirag devansh said...

We have Quality Rick Simpson Cannabis oil ,fibroid, all types of cancer cure, insomnia,Diabetes,back pain,we also have the herbs that reduces stress and other illness. We are selling our products at very negotiable and workable prices. Apart from our very magnificent prices, when you buy from us, you are assured of the highest quality and purity available in the market,and we are 100% sure of our product, with a guaranteed discreet courier shipping or a special 24 hours confidential overnight delivery of the product to your address. We respect and value your privacy and will dont share your information with anyone. We offer discreet and Reliable packaging and delivery. -Fast and reliable shipment within 24hours within the US and 48 hours internationally, using courier service. Call or Text::::: +1936-2283-155, Email: for more information

PAUL said...

Is my pleasure to comment on this site and i thank the admin of this site for his/her great work so of the happiest moment in life is when you see your own wife put to bed.this awesome moments makes you a man, I really don't know how to thank DR WILLIAMS for helping my wife get cured for over how many year of suffering from FIBROID. i came across DR Williams contact through a headline news on internet about how DR Williams help a woman to get cured of his fibroid and so many other with similar body problem ,i contacted him and he told me how to get his herb,few day later he sent me the herbal portion which my wife take every morning for 21 days, and his medicine was able to shrike the fibroid naturally,and now my wife is 4months old pregnant for our second child, and now she very okay without any side effects whatsoever, If you have fibroid, you can contact him on his email address for advice and for his product.

karen dish said...

I can’t believe this. A great testimony that i must share to all fibroid patient in the world. i never believed that their could be any complete cure for fibroid with out going for surgery ,i saw people’s testimony on blog sites and Facebook page of how Dr williams prepare herbal cure for diferent king of disease,and with the help of his herb they where able to shrink there fibroid naturally. i had to try it too and you can,t believe that in just few weeks i started using it all my pains stop gradually . Right now i want to tell you all that i just give birth to a baby boy last month,and on thin now i have not had any pain, and i have just went for text last week and the doctor confirmed that there is no trace of any fibroid in my system . Glory be to God for leading me to this great Dr williams I am so happy as i am sharing this testimony. My advice to you all who thinks that their is no herbal cure for fibroid that is Not true ,just contact him and get cure from his email and you will be free and free forever, Try it and you will not regret it because it truly works. i hope to see your testimony soon.

learn to fly 2 said...

Great blog and you are always provided with access to provide useful information like this to us.

lawson mario bryant said...

thanks to Dr ebhota, who cured me of fallopian tube blockage and fibroid.
i married for over five years with out a child of my own,
because of the problem of my fallopian tube and fibroid, until i came in contact with
Dr Ebhota's testimony and recommendations online, on how he has cured and healed so many people of the same illment, and i decided to contact him,
and he administered his medication on me, and i became pregnant in two months.if you want to reach him for a similar problem, you can reach
him on +2349035324455 or email him,

Anonymous said...

runescape 3 gold
It attracts most of the people, and it's the most important thing about the article, it's a wonderful blog, and it's a great blog, and I'm a game enthusiast, and I can find what you like
old school runescape gold

James Fowler said...

wow such an inspirational post, glad she recovered, eating healthy amount and determination is what is most important, that's why my inventoryis alwaysh stahsed with rocktails since I buy cheap runescape 3 gold

Harrey Bay said...

Am henry from vegas, I am testifying about a great hebal man that cured my wife of fibroid, his name is Dr osaze. My wife was diagnose of fibroid two years ago, i almost spent all i had then, until i saw dr Osaze's recommendation online, and i call him, then he told me how to get the herb. You can call him on +2347089275769 or email him at

Rosemary said...

Wonders shall never end, who could have imagined that herbal medication can cure fibroid. I have been battling with Fibroid for so long, I experienced pelvic pain, heavy menstrual bleeding and I had several miscarriages. I went to the hospital and I was diagnosed of multiple fibroid and I was treated but nothing seems to be working until I read about Uduehi’s medication online and of course I gave it a try and after using his medicine all the fibroid shrank, and the pains gone. I am 4 months pregnant now. You can reach him if interested through: phone/WhatsaPP: +2347084878384

Unknown said...

Who would have believed herbal medicine could cure FIBROID? I suffered fibroid for a long time and getting pregnant was a problem, I had pelvic pain, heavy menstrual bleeding even hospital could not help. Until I read about doctor Uduehi online, I contacted him for help and behold I was cured. I have gone for test severally at the hospital and was proved negative which means I am free from fibroid and I am also pregnant at the moment. You too can be cured if having such problem. His contact: phone/WhatsaPP: +2347084878384

gjhmh said...

Am pela, thanks to Dr Osaze who cured me of fallopian tube blockage and fibroid with his herbal tuber cleanser. My marriage was on the verge of collapsing, because I was unable to bear a child for my husband. Until I came across Dr osaze's recommendation on line, and I contacted him. And he administered his herbs on me. I now have a child I can call my own. In case you want to contact him for a similar problem, or all other issues, you can reach him through his email: or call him on +2347089275769

clad hagel said...

Am Hellen, thanks to Dr oniha who cured me of fallopian tube blockage and fibroid with his herbal tuber cleanser. My marriage was on the verge of collapsing, because I was unable to bear a child for my husband. Until I came across Dr ONIHA's recommendation onLine,of how he has helped numerous of childless couples to have children with the help of his wonderful herbal medication, and I contacted him. And he administered his herbs on me.within the space of two months, i became pregnant, I now have a child I can call my own. In case you want to contact him for a similar problem, or all other infertilty issues, you can reach him through his email:
DRONIHASPELL@YAHOO.COM or call him on +2347089275769

Dana Flores said...

I have being on blog Sites for a while now and today I felt like I should share my story because I was a victim too. I had HIV for 6 years and i never thought I would ever get a cure I had and this made it impossible for me to get married to the man I was supposed to get married to even after 2 years of relationship he broke up with me when he finds out I was HIV positive. So I got to know about Dr. Itua on Blog Site who treated someone and the person shared a story of how she got a cured and let her contact details, I contacted Dr. Itua and he actually confirmed it and I decided to give a try too and use his herbal medicine that was how my burden ended completely. My son will be 2 soon and I am grateful to God and thankful to his medicine too.Dr Itua Can As Well Cure The Following Disease…Alzheimer’s disease,Bechet’s disease,Crohn’s disease,Parkinson's disease,Schizophrenia,Lung Cancer,Breast Cancer,Colo-Rectal Cancer,Blood Cancer,Prostate Cancer,siva.Fatal Familial Insomnia Factor V Leiden Mutation ,Epilepsy Dupuytren's disease,Desmoplastic small-round-cell tumor Diabetes ,Coeliac disease,Creutzfeldt–Jakob disease,Cerebral Amyloid Angiopathy, Ataxia,Arthritis,Amyotrophic Lateral Scoliosis,Fibromyalgia,Fluoroquinolone Toxicity
Syndrome Fibrodysplasia Ossificans ProgresSclerosis,Seizures,Alzheimer's disease,Adrenocortical carcinoma.Asthma,Allergic diseases.Hiv_ Aids,Herpe ,Copd,Glaucoma., Cataracts,Macular degeneration,Cardiovascular disease,Lung disease.Enlarged prostate,Osteoporosis.Alzheimer's disease,
,Cushing’s disease,Heart failure,Multiple Sclerosis,Hypertension,Colo_Rectal Cancer,Lyme Disease,Blood Cancer,Brain Cancer,Breast Cancer,Lung Cancer,Kidney Cancer, HIV, Herpes,Hepatitis B, Liver Inflammatory,Diabetes,Fibroid, Get Your Ex Back, If you have (A just reach him on / Or Whatsapp Number.+2348149277967)He can also advise you on how to handle some marital's issues. He's a good man.

buay marry said...

i have been trying to get pregnant for over 5 years now. My husband and I have been seeing a fertility specialist. We have done our best but no luck. My husband has a sperm count which goes up and down,the doctor has recommended him taking the Proceed supplement which he is doing over 3 years with no change in the situation .. I was so confused until i contacted this powerful spell caster Dr. Ebhota online who I saw a number of testimonies of how he has help so many of people so I sent Dr. Ebhota a mail and I told him all my sorrows and pain he replied me and ask me not to cry any more that he will help, he sent me some instructions and caution, Dr. Ebhota cast the spell and I bought some items to complete the spell casting and he told me to meet with my husband.. Within 3weeks of doing this I felt some changes and I went to my doctor and it was confirm that I was pregnant,i promises Dr Ebhota to share his testimony for three years,it has been over a year and four months now,i have been testifying this great testimonies for my life and my husband,for any one how need his help herb potion should contact him,on his Email [ ] or call him on [ +2349035324155 ]  

Post a Comment

Newer Post Older Post Home

ED Bites on Facebook!

ED Bites is on Twitter!

Search ED Bites

About Me

My photo
I'm a science writer, a jewelry design artist, a bookworm, a complete geek, and mom to a wonderful kitty. I am also recovering from a decade-plus battle with anorexia nervosa. I believe that complete recovery is possible, and that the first step along that path is full nutrition.

Drop me a line!

Have any questions or comments about this blog? Feel free to email me at

nour·ish: (v); to sustain with food or nutriment; supply with what is necessary for life, health, and growth; to cherish, foster, keep alive; to strengthen, build up, or promote


Popular Posts


Recent Comments