Now that the holidays are essentially over, Diet Season is officially open. Considering that weight loss is the most common New Year's resolution, we can look forward to being inundated with the following:
- ridiculously expensive fitness equipment
- diet programs galore
- ridiculously expensive diet food
- gym memberships
- weight loss articles galore
- how we're all fat and going to die* of obesity
Honestly, as much as I preach about it on my blog, I still feel incredible guilt when I buy "junk" or "snack" foods, or items that are full-fat. I get that my recovery means I have odd caloric needs, and that these foods are healthy for me. I also get that these foods aren't inherently unhealthy. Yet at this same time, that mentality is SO PREVALENT that it still worms its way into my brain.
I worry what the other shoppers in the supermarket must thing as they look at my cart: are they judging me? They must be. I have too much food, not the "right" foods, not "healthy enough" foods. And the stupid checkout boy. He sees so much food, so many choices. How do mine stack up? Can I do better? Yes. Yes, I can do better. I must.
It really screws with my head, and I don't know what to do about it.
*I initially typed "diet of obesity" which is almost certainly true.