tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post899531650282909595..comments2024-03-23T08:25:22.526-04:00Comments on ED Bites: Learning from relapseCarrie Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02569839838912988783noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-28977348104508029182012-04-29T15:46:42.655-04:002012-04-29T15:46:42.655-04:00I found myself googling “eating disorders” and cli...I found myself googling “eating disorders” and clicking on the links that popped up. Link after link, article after article, they all described me. Anorexia nervosa? So that’s what this has been all along? How had I not seen it? Why hadn’t I known? Why hadn’t anyone said anything?<br />So many questions circled in my brain that afternoon as I spent hours researching and learning online. At last my eyes were opened and I realized that what I had been dealing with, what I had thought was normal, was indeed a sickness, a disease. I knew that things needed to change in my life immediately or I was going to continue down a very dangerous path. <br />This day marked the beginning of my journey out of anorexia. I saw counselors, I met with dieticians, I told my friends and family, I quit the basketball team – this is just a small taste of the rigorous program I started myself on in a desperate attempt to change my path. This was the Fall of 2010.<br />I am writing this in Spring of 2012 and I am happy to report that my life is, in fact, headed in a much different direction. Why is my life different? Well, although I am sure it helped, it wasn’t from the intense program that I made myself go through. Counselors, dieticians, and friends can only do so much. The healing of my body and mind didn’t really start until Fall 2011 when I experienced God’s healing power. Through what I believe to be a divinely inspired meeting I found myself in the office on a Christian acupuncturist. After over an hour of intense prayer and intercession I walked out of her office a new person. I left behind my addiction to my appearance and body image. I once and for all decided that I would not let Satan rule my life in that way. <br />I am happy to report that today I am at a healthy weight living a healthy lifestyle. Do I still sometimes feel temptations to deprive my body of what it needs? Occasionally. But I will never go back to where I was and I am thankful to God everyday for intervening in my life and saving me out of the pit. An eating disorder is a dark place to be and one that I refuse to live in anymore. <br />I would love to share with, pray for, and listen to anyone who can relate or has questions. There is hope, God is good and powerful and He will answer your prayers. You don’t have to live the rest of your life this way – that’s a lie from Satan. I invite you to step into the life that God has for you and so desperately wants you to experience. You are a beloved daughter of the Most High, don’t ever forget that!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-16339841789423032672012-01-11T14:33:55.826-05:002012-01-11T14:33:55.826-05:00Awesome awesome post. The points you made have ta...Awesome awesome post. The points you made have taken me years to learn and have been essential to experiencing any real relief from my eating disorder. I wish everyone starting out in recovery could get these messages. Thank you!Fancy Freehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09981617959143775270noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-18329241758310636422011-09-13T15:11:44.550-04:002011-09-13T15:11:44.550-04:00Absolutely brilliant post, ED Bites. Really great....Absolutely brilliant post, ED Bites. Really great.Bev Mattocks Osbornehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02353718855920959097noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-82569899340793295372011-09-08T16:16:17.757-04:002011-09-08T16:16:17.757-04:00This is a great topic. Everything you said is so t...This is a great topic. Everything you said is so true. Progress not perfection and as long as we learn from every action we are fighting the disease.Sara Grambuschhttp://sarasexpletives.wordpress.cmnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-58368974968681987542011-08-28T02:14:57.398-04:002011-08-28T02:14:57.398-04:00I definatley can relate to all those points. Havin...I definatley can relate to all those points. Having relapsed various times I have learnt that no hospital/doctor/ or treatment team can heal me(while they certainly can help), only I have that power to do so.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-42797544088776190112011-08-27T17:07:18.134-04:002011-08-27T17:07:18.134-04:00learning from our mistakes like this is SO importa...learning from our mistakes like this is SO important. You point out some very very great lessons :)<br /><br />Hope you're having a great weekend!<br /><br />ScottAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-73296490915541492582011-08-27T04:06:58.356-04:002011-08-27T04:06:58.356-04:00Thank-you so much for sharing this. It is so helpf...Thank-you so much for sharing this. It is so helpful xoKylie-Rosehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08943443541282868324noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-33582574482068266972011-08-26T14:18:23.288-04:002011-08-26T14:18:23.288-04:00I think many of Simone's lessons are ones whic...I think many of Simone's lessons are ones which most people in recovery are forced to learn at some point! I distinguish between a lapse and a relapse, partly to protect my self esteem :P and although I've had a few lapses (very few/minor overt behaviours lasting a week or two, as opposed to backsliding on a large scale), I've not relapsed this time in recovery. However, I've been trying to recover since I was 15, and it took me until two years ago when I was 24...<br /><br />Minor lapses - into depressive or anxious thinking/behaviours as much as the ED/SI version - generally show me that I'm doing too much and need to be more patient with myself. Like an early warning system. It's very useful as long as I catch myself before it turns into a full on relapse!Katiehttp://giantfossilizedarmadillo.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-43473943525962550052011-08-26T07:04:40.515-04:002011-08-26T07:04:40.515-04:00I learnt lots of things from my most recent relaps...I learnt lots of things from my most recent relapse... :)<br />- My weight needs to be higher than the absolute minimum.<br />- I was doing the wrong uni course (and now I'm doing the right one).<br />- I need lots of ongoing support.<br />- I need to be nicer to myself.<br />- I have very supportive friends and family!Simone Elisenoreply@blogger.com