tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post2773102096380334285..comments2024-03-23T08:25:22.526-04:00Comments on ED Bites: Recovery in purple and orangeCarrie Arnoldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02569839838912988783noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-65446981972588416032010-05-10T03:10:18.213-04:002010-05-10T03:10:18.213-04:00For someone who is nowhere near recovery, I can on...For someone who is nowhere near recovery, I can only imagine there will be moments in recovery as there are when I am not, that your mind is quick in trying to trick you, your heart vulnerably following. I wish you the best of luck. It's a tough journey, I'm sure! You deserve kudos for attempting that path that many have yet to try!Nobody Girlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04281755315267390134noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-44455508259256307902010-05-06T19:29:39.159-04:002010-05-06T19:29:39.159-04:00Blending is a really good way of thinking about re...Blending is a really good way of thinking about recovery. As much as there are 'definitive moments' and mini epiphanies, seeing it as a blend instead of black-and-white or all-or-nothing terms (oh, how the eating disorder likes those absolute rigid ideas) is helpful.<br /><br />It's all about subtle shifts, shades and degrees indeed. Thanks for that nice image :)James Claytonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02649874906360931246noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-57189659386969135172010-05-06T14:43:24.081-04:002010-05-06T14:43:24.081-04:00This is where I feel like the odd one out ;) I did...This is where I feel like the odd one out ;) I did have defining moments, both when I first decided to recover, and when I realised that I was free of eating disordered thoughts and behaviours. But lots of different things led up to those moments, it was a bit of a case of "it happened slowly, and then all at once".Katiehttp://themilkfreeway.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-19949779650447294942010-05-06T14:34:36.962-04:002010-05-06T14:34:36.962-04:00Well said. Recovery is a change from one color to...Well said. Recovery is a change from one color to the next. It isn't a destination, a place you have finally arrived. It's a long, slow process. Life is about the journey.<br /><br />It would be nice if we were one day cured, but it's more like diabetes. Probably for the rest of our life we will have to "manage" our eating disorders. At least that's the way I see it.Missing In Sighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08550255615516862848noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-48969339238344206172010-05-06T09:22:17.729-04:002010-05-06T09:22:17.729-04:00I've just recently started working toward reco...I've just recently started working toward recovery and it's completely bizarre. A few weeks ago, after eating a real, human-sized meal with my boyfriend, he asked me if I was "better now." For a moment I looked back on all of the real, human-sized meals I've eaten lately and thought "yes, I must be."<br /><br />But, as you said, recovery really is not about the ability to eat. Actually wanting to nourish your body is a good thing, but shutting up the voice that tells you you don't deserve x, y, or z is so much harder than it sounds.<br /><br />I think this is easy to understand for us in recovery, but not necessarily easy to understand for those who love and care about us (or those who are just curious enough to ask). Recovery, for those who have never had to recover from anything like this, is easily defined as the opposite of "sick". Which I think puts a lot of pressure on the person in recovery to be Recovered.<br /><br />I kind of rambled on there...I just wanted to say thanks for writing this.elizabeth marleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13753506415053168471noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-71194748354247219812010-05-06T03:36:22.185-04:002010-05-06T03:36:22.185-04:00Thank you so much for writing this. I have been st...Thank you so much for writing this. I have been struggling recently with how to define my recovery and resist my instincts to analyse - and label - and control the whole process. <br /><br />This has reminded - and reassured me - that recovery happens by degrees and has been, for me, a mixture of force and nature; push, pull, holding on, letting go... And this is okay. Because the lines don't matter, I suppose, as long as colours are becoming brighter...Melissahttp://www.findingmelissa.co.uknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-11397749151083163002010-05-06T02:47:50.613-04:002010-05-06T02:47:50.613-04:00I certainly agree with the 'blending' aspe...I certainly agree with the 'blending' aspect of recovery. Real recovery (and by 'real' I mean disappearance of ED thoughts rather than weight changes...) happens very slowly and gradually.<br /><br />However, I do clearly remember the onset of my anorexia nervosa (AN) at age 11. Interestingly, I never even tried to lose weight. I lost weight inadvertently because I was over-exercising and under-eating to relieve anxiety. My mother noticed I had lost weight (having been a naturally skinny child), weighed me, and rushed me off to the doctor - who told me I should eat more and exercise less. <br /><br />The point at which my AN began was when I noticed resistance to change. This 'thing' in my head 'instructed' me that I mustn't deviate from my eating and exercise regime. When food was placed in front of me, that 'thing' (the ED 'voice') 'screamed' at me 'don't eat it'. I found myself throwing food away when no-one was looking and lying about what I had eaten. I was frightened of that 'thing' in my head because it felt to have taken control of my mind and my body.<br /><br />AN was fast onset, but recovery has been painfully slow...Cathy (UK)http://www.youtube.com/user/misstiggykinsnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6561748834204284315.post-22112484233646821102010-05-06T00:00:47.926-04:002010-05-06T00:00:47.926-04:00Yes, I think recovery is a blending. I have a toug...Yes, I think recovery is a blending. I have a tough time pinpointing when the illness started too. I remember the worst of it, of course. It was well under way in 1997...but I have flashes of memories of fearing food before that. The year before, I know I started being conscious of restricting. It was so gradual. Recovery is the same. I always say I started recovering in 2001, with inpatient treatment. But, that's not really true. I tried outpatient help for a long time before that. And I wanted to be done with anorexia as early as 1999... I just didn't know how. I used to think recovery was so black and white -- typical of me ;)Kimhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12524913753671188764noreply@blogger.com